In case you haven't heard....

.... I met my hero and biggest idol of all time, the incredible Mr. Dirk Mai.  Yes it was at The Maine's concert in Aneheim on August 22nd, and meeting him meant more to me than anything else that happened that day.  I saw a great show and even got to meet the band after words, but nothing else mattered as soon as I saw Dirk.  I walked right up and introduced myself and asked for a picture with him, it was such an honor, but nothing prepared me for when next he asked to take my picture!  I have to say, most. incredible. experience. of. my. life.  He was such a nice person and it was just so inspiring to actually meet him.  I feel as if my passion and motivation for photography was resparked, and it's not just something that I want to do anymore, I feel as if it's something i need to do.  Dirk Mai, thank you so much for the amazing opportunity and I hope someday to work along side you and ultimately be as great as you.

Being Alone has Started to Take Its Toll....

....I'm cold, and it's getting old.

Always Remember....

....who your true friends are.

                  

These are the most amazing people in my life and I love them all dearly in different ways.  Always cherish what you have, and don't forget to look back every once in a while and remember who your true friends are.

Courtney Rahne - My darling and beautiful sister, I don't know what I'd do without you sometimes.  I love you more than you can ever know and I am so blessed to have a sister like you.

Briana Rose - My closest, oldest, and dearest friend.  I believe it is you that keeps me most sane in the insane world we live in.  I am thankful everyday that I have such an amazing best friend as yourself.  I love you always bebe.

Karissa Lynn - My "aunt" and also closest related best friend, whatever you want to call it.  You are much wiser beyond your years, I do believe and it is too rarely acknowledged.  I wake up each and every day and think, "huh, i wonder what karissa's doin today.  I sure do miss living with her."

Raychill - Probably my oldest friend.....even though we might not have been friends back in the kindergarten years.  You mean more to me than you'll ever know.  I can come to you with anything and I know you'll have a down to earth and REAL solution for me.  And of course my True Blood partner in crime.  My dearest Rachael =]

Kayla Christine - You were there for me at one of the roughest points in my life and helped me through.  I am so thankful that we started to finally build a friendship this year and I am so lucky to know someone so talented as you.  All of our laughs and memories are so dear to me.  I love you.

Erika Marie - I have had more laughs with you than anyone I know, I think.  It has never been a dull time just hanging out with you EHRIK!  Thank you for your wonderful cheeriness and gracious laughs, there isn't a day that goes by that I don't miss just sitting around and acting like fools with you and kayla.

Mike Wilson - Although you are one of my newer friends, I consider you among the great.  Such a fun and down to earth guy, you never cease to put a smile on my face.  Thanks for the long board sessions and late nights at winco.

Andrew VELA - I'd have to say my only guy best friend.  Odd but these things happen.  You're one of the coolest cats I know, Vela.  Thanks for the late night random wanderings and adventures....even though we might not always have something to talk about.

There you have it, the people i cherish most.  May you all put up with me for just a little while longer =]

I'm keeping my head in the clouds, and it's not so tragic if i don't look down.

GGAAAAHHHHHHH

     So, today my hopes and dreams of watching the new True Blood tonight were crushed.  A certain someone's mom *cough* Rachael *cough* makes me wanna punch infants.  Anyways, not much happening lately and I have found myself even too bored (or just plain lazy) to even post a new blog.  But, alas, here it is.  Maybe just for you Erika =]  Here are my thoughts and word vomit for the day....maybe the week.....
     I have found myself working very much lately which is a great thing, brinin in that dinero.  Still very angry with this stupid desert; I don't think I'll ever get over that though.  I am constantly finding myself just sitting around with nothing to do which just feeds my irritation and makes me feel, sometimes, that I'm a manic depressant.  I can be having the happiest of days, or even just laid back and relaxing and become irritable or angry with most people around me.  And even then my mood will shift again to becoming "depressed" about not being with someone, or where I'm living, or how I'm so lame because I have nothing to do on a Saturday night.  I know it sounds trivial and childish, but these are the mixed up things going on in my head 24/7.
     Not really sure what to do about all of this, but i do know it weighs more and more on my conscience everyday and seems like it's getting harder to just put aside and ignore.  And of course I'm always stressed about other things that most of my family doesn't know about and always thinking about how, when, and even if I'll ever tell them these things.
     So, blog and dearest readers, there is today's, or this weeks latest vent session.  if you have any feedback feel free to comment or text or call.  I could really use some time out and away, any form of hanging out would be much appreciated.  Hit me up and let's find some shade, ya digg?

  

I Keep it Real.

blog blog...blog blog blog blog....blog....blog blog.....This is how i blog =] So, I got my sun glasses today!  They came in the mail, and I was so effing STOKED!  Hmmm, anyways, I've just been working my butt off, two days off last week, two days off this week.  I LOVE JEANS!!!!!!!!!!  haha not so embarrassed anymore, just super irritated from the last time I posted.  Two more weeks til The Maine concert, and i am so excited.  I love my best friend Briana.... who is also now my boss =]  And, tonight I will finally get to watch the new True Blood for this week with my Ray - Chill.  Wearing my super tight pants with my nostalgic photograph t shirt with my new kicks.  Ready for the night =]  These are the things happening in my life right now.....or at least the things that come to mind at the moment.  Thanks for reading.  Au revoir!

....I have to say that right now, every physical, mental, and emotional part of me is filled with embarrassment. Oh, and I've also had a revelation.  I am much much too over bearing, and that can sometimes give people the wrong impression that makes it very hard to make friends in this little shithole people like to call the high desert.  Seriously, I don't even know how to act or what to do with myself right now....I feel like I'm on one of those really bad T.V. drama's where you try to explain how it really is, and all of it just comes out wrong and you feel worse than before.  And then other people see what you're trying to say and take it a completely opposite direction and that's how everything gets all messed up and how rumors get started and eventually how people start to "view" you.  And that's why everyone should get out of here as soon as they can and move to a more vastly populated area where not everyone else knows each other!.....
Thank you. That is all.

=]

Just....

....ordered.

when life gives you lemons....

....just say, "EFF THE LEMONS!" and bail.

Day 2...Hey, i think i can keep up with this =]....(not)

hhhmmm so I was reading my first post where I rambled on about what a blog was.....and all i can say is, "duh." Like I said, there aren't going to be any clear points to the things I'm gonna be talking about.  So, second blog post so far...I have to admit, I thought i would do it for a day, then forget about it....then remember it and just think, "hm, i haven't posted anything.....aw well, Ima go drink some juice." But look at me! haha two days in a row.  I only have internet access when i come to my grande pere's house.....where we "borrow" internet =]  and we are usually over here everyday helping out with things, so it gives me something to do when I'm sitting around bored and all my friends are being neglectful.  And right now I'm hating that I have to think about what I want to say when the point is to just put whatever the f*ck I want.  So, don't hug sharks.  Eat your carrots.  Tip your waitresses.  Andddddd....NothingPersonal =]  There, that wasn't so hard.  Alright, let's try for round three, I figure if i can post three times in a row, I'll be able to stick with it.......don't ask me why.

the blogging world

I've wanted to start a blog for a while now.  Not just to write, but to express things I'm going through and all that nonsense; but also, I guess, to just throw out everything that seems to be bundled up inside this "think - too - much" brain of mine.  So, for the most part, this page (or monster) that I have decided to create will serve more as an outlet, and random ramblings that i feel i must put into words that i can actually see so that they become physical and not just floating around in the oblivion that is my mind.  Now, to you my dearest reader, my friend, my family, my love, my coworker, or simply coexister.....enjoy my thoughts and word vomit, and feel free to respond to my posts and talk with me anytime.  I enjoy a good conversation, and adore meeting new and creative people, and with that, i bid you adieu =]

                      -Arthur