....I have to say that right now, every physical, mental, and emotional part of me is filled with embarrassment. Oh, and I've also had a revelation.  I am much much too over bearing, and that can sometimes give people the wrong impression that makes it very hard to make friends in this little shithole people like to call the high desert.  Seriously, I don't even know how to act or what to do with myself right now....I feel like I'm on one of those really bad T.V. drama's where you try to explain how it really is, and all of it just comes out wrong and you feel worse than before.  And then other people see what you're trying to say and take it a completely opposite direction and that's how everything gets all messed up and how rumors get started and eventually how people start to "view" you.  And that's why everyone should get out of here as soon as they can and move to a more vastly populated area where not everyone else knows each other!.....
Thank you. That is all.